still here... again

So we've had two really really good weeks. Which is nice. I finally figured out that my depression was fueling a lot of my negative thoughts, irritability and general numbness. I've upped my medication to a more reasonable level and feel like myself again. The medication doesn't excuse what happened, or erase what was said as I was falling apart -- but it does help to answer some questions for me and make me feel significantly less crazy.

So -- where do we go from here? Both of us are working with our therapist to deal with own shit. I have plenty of it, and my husband has plenty of it. We've also made a pact to take sex off the table for a few weeks. It's been stressful for both of us (he has a higher libido than I do, and therefore he feels like he's being rejected all the time and I feel like I'm being pressured all the time). Learning how to be friends and enjoy each other's company has been great. We are really get back to the reasons why we got together in the first place.

We have a trip planned for this weekend that we are both looking forward to. Will be back in time for Father's Day dinner with the kids.